Monday, July 6, 2009
After watching the animate of the girl that leap through time, I notion of going back to the past to change my results, my spm and matric results then I also dunno how. Haha. If I get better result in spm then all things after that will gonna changed… hmm, changing future what will happen next. Maybe will get jpa the wun never ever dream of being a doctor.
Maybe what happened there is a reason for it. I had undergo this experience, does it a way of pushing towards my ambition since young? Or getting such an unexpected result was a hint to stop me from taking medic?
Yesterday, I still can’t fall asleep till 3 am, was thinking about my future. I was thinking I still will continue what I wanted by taking medic but not in um, then write a resume to the SOS hospital in Singapore, unexpectedly they accept me and offer and sponsor me to study in university Singapore. Wow! And find a doctor bf to teach me in my study... go go go! Go for it!
Actually all I want was just wanna be a doctor and go overseas to get a better opportunity to let other people to realise my unrevealed talent. Why wasn’t born smarter like those genius can remember right after they read and understand the text without any difficulties. Then I should not hatta suffer and worry that much. I wanna prove to others that I am as good as others. Why they can study with good grades why can’t I? Isn’t it God is fair but even thought I study hard I still dun get good result in those important exam.
Maybe I just wasn’t that smart or talented. My talent was always be covered, like at home due to transport or financial problem. Even I interested in music or dance i never get a chance to learn. Only there- matric was a totally dream-digger place.
22 May 09 10:09pm
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:24 PM
