At Hsu Ann’s party I had found out one thing. I had become the alien I can’t join their topic, even a sentence! Suddenly I like from different world, from a talkative person evolved became a silence person, just can smile to their topic, finding myself being ignored. Besides sitting there, I dunno what else I can do, just hoping Chin Xia could come earlier. Dunno since when my English became so terrible, I couldn’t speak well and fluently as usual, just like long time din speak, it had rusted. Helpless and bored! Without internet connection, I had being outdated and not keep contact with many people. Out of reach of information, they weren’t know what was going on with me so did I. Not having a car, having limited freedom, can’t go out for gathering or yamcha, causing my PR is declining and I hate my situation and my attitude.
Relationship this kinda stuff is so hard to predict. Everything is a time limit for it including friendship. Friend forever? Is that true, is just a feeling; you can see it or touch it. When the time comes, no matter how hard you try to hold on it, it slips away. Just like the rain in the midnight, what you can see just the water left on the road. Friends come and go only the true one stay. A true best friend stills now me still searching of her trace. Maybe I appear but I dun realise.
For all this year, I thought I had found one, not to say true but best friend. A good friend is someone who laughs with you not at you. Our friendship contains this quality, even far apart, she called me to share our happy stuff but never talk about our problem. Whenever I try to speak out my problem, she will try to avoid or she is busy of something else. I dun have a shoulder to lie on that why I really need a friend a cry on. I really appreciate the moment we spend together, just hope you’ll be there when I face a problem and pray that distance and time shall not bring us apart!
22 Jun., 09 5:12pm