Monday, July 6, 2009
Unfair!
No matter how hard I study and doing notes I never get the result I deserved… But other just enjoy their life still manage get better result. I swear that my scarification never less than anyone but still why my result never get better than them. Not that I wanna compare with other, I dun even can reach the target that I set for myself.
Just like what Edison said, 1% of inspiration and 99% of perspiration. Nevertheless, my hard work never equal to the result I get. I hate myself why in the last minutes I sure break down and ruin up all the hard work of study. During the study week my brain will suddenly blank up and data can’t enter anymore. The important time my brain just liked to be the opposition of me.
I hate it, which was so unfair; I sacrificed at my entertainment and relationship to study, study till midnight and dun tell me my way of study was wrong. I just try not to burn midnight oil, but my memory doesn’t stand on my side, it just can’t remember too earlier but I just dun have enough time for it! Why God is so unfair, giving someone with good memory, smart and talent but why not me. Even I study hard, You also dun help on hardworking people. I do deserve BETTER!
After all I just wanna be a doctor to help those who needed, wanna be a volunteer to help out those who innocent but suffer in the war and natural disaster, but why other just like to complete with me to get into the limited place of medic course. Those places only deserve for those who interested and willing to sacrifice not those who smart and money minded! So those who not interested just get lost and dun waste the place of mine!
If I end up just being a chemists then what for I enter matric, study so hard and suffer so much. I just wanna be doctor, other I not interested! I sure I qualified for being a doctor. So be fair, let me be what I wish, a doctor. Only dream can drive me forward and higher.
I hate the examination system in Malaysia and unfairness of selection!
27 May 2009 12:48 pm
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:27 PM
