Monday, July 6, 2009
What an unlucky day! Omg, really is time to go seek for advice from fortune-teller see what is going on with me?
First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DAD!
Moreover, sorry for unable give the best present for you. Today was result out day, suppose all my hard work is time to be rewarded with good result. Nevertheless, there is problem with my study way. As what people said, study smart not hard… How the right way of study and what is is study smart. I did notes and din work last minutes but everything just gone very wrong in the study week. What is the thing going wrong and I can’t figure it out, guide please. Now I do wish I have a sibling which is elder than me give me advice and support.
Today was planned to go for car driving, but I felt that there is something wrong with the car, it was not balance, the steering kept moved to my right and found out was tyre problem, I get scolded for not checking before scolding and I realised I dunno how to change tyre.
Something bad sure happened before getting my result same as during SPM result released and end up I din get good result for it. That day supposed to be a happy day to gather back with the entire schoolmate but suddenly I get a call that I still owe school book and hatta go back to get it. Damm unlucky.
Today, same thing happened, izit the unlucky sign and I din get 4 flat meaning that can’t enter medic course. I went far away to matric just to study medic but thank to matric I dare to dream of something seemed to be impossible for me. Now I seemed to be an ant losing its direction. Dunno what should to in the future. Aim for the sky and reach for the star, I aimed for medic now dunno what course to apply other that medic.
Should I still go on with my dream, why cant I just get 4 and all the problems is settled! I dun understand how could I get a B for bio, to study medic, B is an insult! And A- for math, unacceptable! What I got was so unpredictable; I knew I dun really did well but not this worse. Honestly, for Chinese to get this kinda result is so embarrass. Omg, who can I blame of?
I din do well for matric then how am I qualified to study medic, how to survive through the 5 years of medic life. The confliction in me began ever since the unconfident of me choosing the medic path so how to end it? Izit dun choose medic than this kinda headache will gone forever and live freely after that. But in the other hand, I wanted to be doctor so much! I hate myself! Why wasn’t I born to be smarter or braver in taking challenges?
Now what? Move on or turn other direction?
20 May 2009 3:45pm
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:21 PM
